Here I am, part-way into January already and this is my first post of the New Year. And it’s a bit of a lost one, as I’m really not sure what to write. Ever since Holly was born, five year ago, and I turned to blogging to give me something to do other than tending to a newborn, it has been a hugely important part of my life. I’ve shared my stories, listened to others’, I’ve made friends both in person and online, I’ve learnt so much about the blogging world and about myself and I can’t remember a time when I didn’t flick on the computer as soon as I’d made my morning brew and catch up with whatever I’d missed overnight.
That is until now. I’ve opened my computer a few time, but mainly to check cinema listings or look at holidays. I’ve not checked my blog stats, as I’m pretty sure they would be minuscule, ad every time I’ve considered writing I’ve just thought ‘no.’
I feel a bit empty without it though, as though a part of me has died somehow. Writing it all down and being part of the community has always meant so much to me I’m not quite sure where to go from here. Do I give it all up, all the years of hard works, laughter and indeed tears, and walk away, or do I just keep waiting for some lightbulb to come on that will reignite that fire I had back at the beginning? I’m fearful that it won’t come back at all, and I’m not sure what I’ll do if it doesn’t. This blog means the world to me and leave it to drift away would just feel wrong.
I’d love to know if you have felt this way and what decision you took? Did something come back on or did you feel ok about walking away? Where are you now with it all?
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